Wednesday, April 30, 2014

FTE Discernment Retreat



My fellow US-2 and prayer partner, Cindy, also attended the conference! 
This past weekend I had the opportunity to go to the FTE Northwest Discernment Retreat in Auburn, Washington. FTE is the Forum for Theological Education, and the conference this weekend was just what I needed. I flew into Seattle on Friday morning and spent the next several days listening to talks, reflecting, attending workshops, and participating in discussions. I was thrilled to be in a place with so much green and so much water!!! I met young adults serving all over the northwest (and beyond) in programs similar to mine, and it was a blessing to be able to connect with people who understand what I'm doing.

These are some snippets that were highlights for me. I hope to expand on these ideas in the next few days!

Vocation connects what you love to the needs of the world.

Common anxieties: 
-Idea of fate and death (lack of control, lack of choice)
-Guilt and shame (falling short, not living up to ourselves)
-Emptiness and meaninglessness (does anything I do matter?)

Embrace grace.
Accept the fact that you are accepted.

Why am I talking to myself as I would not talk to someone else?

What is the place of deep longing for me?

Color does not equal culture. (You can't assume a culture by looking at someone's color--heard from biracial conference attendees.)

Nightmares could be healing dreams, but we wake up before the healing can occur.



I also had the great joy of reuniting with my fellow US-2, Cindy. Cindy was my roommate during our Interview & Discernment Days and she is also my prayer partner! (Picture is at the top of the post.)


Another highlight for me was seeing my Aunt Laura, my cousin Danielle, and her husband Gonzo. Aunt Laura came to pick me up early Saturday morning and we met Danielle and Gonzo at a nearby place for breakfast. This was such a renewing and valuable time for me! Seeing people who are important to you is life-giving.